Strength

I forgot what it feels like to matter,
What it feels like to make a difference.
I try so hard, make the effort
In all the wrong places
And never come out on top.
I just want to be me again,
I've made so many mistakes-
Led my life in the wrong direction,
Thrown my motivation into the wrong places.
How do I turn back from here?
I know what the right thing is,
But how do I do it alone?
I never realized I was weak
Until I was alone.
My strength and independence
Came from being needed.
Now, left with nothing
Why is my independence gone
When I need it most?
I just want to shine and be me again.
I don't want to fight for attention.
I want to fight to make a difference.